Thy Will Be Done vs. My Will Be Done
Who Will Save Me From This Body of Death?
“Thy will be done” obsesses with an outward look. Even though it may not be totally satisfied with the answers it receives, nonetheless it pursues a will outside of its own self to direct the life and the Will itself. Man can still be deluded, but the Will is directed outwards — constantly looking, perhaps still deceived, but at least this Will has a chance to find that Will which is above its own.
“My will be done” is a problem not because it succeeds in isolating one’s own internal Will, but because the inward look makes it virtually impossible to receive a Will which is higher, or a vision which is higher, a good word which can come from the outside — apart from special intervening graces.
Being, therefore, deceived, the inward Will thinks that it is self-governing but may indeed receive the will of another which is lower — that being Satan and the demons. One thinks himself free because he rejected God, but in the end served neither himself nor freedom, but the will of another, which is more debased in nature.
It may not be possible to know which one you are doing at a given time, in yourself (Thy will vs My will), but it seems possible to discern which disposition you practice.
Who will save me from this body of death?
Master, give me eyes so I can see.
For my reader,
I share these things because I want the very best life for you;
the very best life in Christ.
This is my prayer
and these;
these are my Confessions.